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  Hook Shot

  Kennedy Ryan

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  This is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, or real places are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places, and events are products of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or places or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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  THE SOUL SERIES

  My Soul to Keep (Soul 1)*

  Down to My Soul (Soul 2)*

  Refrain (Soul 3)

  THE GRIP SERIES

  FLOW (Grip #1)

  GRIP (Grip #2)*

  STILL (Grip #3)

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  THE BENNETT SERIES

  When You Are Mine (Bennett 1)

  Loving You Always (Bennett 2)

  Be Mine Forever (Bennett 3)

  Until I’m Yours (Bennett 4)

  Contents

  Author’s Note

  Quote

  Prologue

  Quote

  1. Lotus

  2. Kenan

  3. Lotus

  4. Kenan

  5. Lotus

  6. Kenan

  7. Lotus

  8. Kenan

  9. Lotus

  10. Lotus

  11. Kenan

  12. Kenan

  13. Lotus

  14. Kenan

  15. Lotus

  16. Kenan

  17. Lotus

  18. Kenan

  19. Lotus

  20. Kenan

  21. Kenan

  22. Lotus

  23. Kenan

  24. Lotus

  25. Kenan

  26. Lotus

  27. Kenan

  28. Kenan

  29. Lotus

  30. Lotus (Twelve Years Old)

  31. Kenan

  32. Lotus

  33. Kenan

  34. Lotus

  35. Kenan

  36. Lotus

  37. Lotus

  38. Lotus

  39. Kenan

  40. Lotus

  41. Kenan

  42. Lotus

  43. Lotus

  44. Kenan

  45. Lotus

  46. Kenan

  Epilogue

  About the Author

  Acknowledgments

  To those living with invisible pain

  and fighting so hard to be free.

  Don’t stop healing.

  Author’s Note

  HOOK SHOT tells the story of one woman’s healing journey. Parts of it, while not graphically depicted, may prove sensitive for some readers.

  ***

  “Give yourself permission to let it hurt,

  but allow yourself permission to let it heal.”

  Nikki Rowe, Once a Girl, Now a Woman

  Prologue

  Lotus

  I grew up believing the sky spoke to me. The booming voice of thunder. The sharp retort of lightning. Every storm, a conversation. A volatile exchange. But today, there’s a rainbow. Skittle-colored stripes airbrushed overhead in a rain-washed sky.

  “You remember what the rainbow means?” MiMi, my great-grandmother, asks.

  Like so many things she has taught me, the answer is ingrained, woven into my fibers. I don’t even have to think about it.

  “A rainbow is the bridge between Heaven and Earth,” I reply, my voice coming strong even though my insides quake.

  “Hmmm. Somebody’s trying to get into Heaven.” She considers the sky, eyes wise beyond her eighty-some-odd years. “Not today.”

  We stand shadowed by one of New Orleans’ famous oaks in the cemetery, watching the few assembled mourners disperse. There are no tears for the dead. There weren’t many who loved Ron Clemmons. He was a man only a mother could love.

  His mother and mine.

  My pulse stutters at the sight of Mama. I last saw her when I was twelve, four years ago. She is today, as she was then, standing by Ron, but this time he lies in an open grave. I snap my lips tight against the word screaming in my head, determined not to speak.

  Mama!

  Even though I don’t say her name, she looks up as if I have. Her eyes widen through the short black veil that looks like something fashionable women wore years ago when burying their lovers. “Vintage,” Mama used to say, instead of “thrift store.” Classic, not second-hand. She always wanted the finer things and clung to any man who promised them. Except Ron never promised her much, and Mama still clung like it was a habit she didn’t know how to break.

  The fine arches of her brows snap together, and her gaze ricochets between me and MiMi, then darts to the open grave. There are few cemeteries in New Orleans where they bury folks underground. This is one of them. For the poor and unloved, unclaimed. That’s what this is. That’s what Ron is.

  She touches the black silky chignon pleated at the back of her head and takes a few steps in our direction, but freezes mid-stride. I glance at MiMi, who shakes her head gravely, telling Mama not to come any closer. It’s acceptance, not shock, on Mama’s face as she turns away and follows the trickle of mourners leaving the cemetery. It’s not the first time she has thought to see me, but MiMi knows I don’t want to see her.

  If anyone knows, MiMi does.

  Gravediggers take the place of the few who’d stood around while the clergyman read from his little book of ceremonial prayers. Weddings, baptisms, funerals. A verse for everything.

  “It’s time,” MiMi says, her mouth grim.

  We make our way across the grass to reach the men shoveling dirt. One of them glances up, catching sight of MiMi, and elbows the other. They pause in the shoveling.

  “Madam DuPree,” one of them drawls, his Louisiana accent thick as swamp water. “What can we do for you?”

  “Leave.” MiMi waves a hand at the grave. “Don’t worry. You don’t have to go too far or wait too long. We just need a bit of privacy. Then you can do whatever you want with his body.”

  Her eyes drift to the open mouth of the ground swallowing Ron whole, and she smiles. “It’s his soul I’m here to discuss.”

  You’ve never seen men scurry like these two at her words.
Their shovels drop. They take off. It was a two-hour bus ride from St. Martine, our small parish town, to the city, but even here, folks know MiMi. In a world full of phonies, she’s the genuine article. And when she says leave, you go.

  We stand over the grave, and though the casket is closed and splattered with the first clumps of dirt, I shiver like Ron might sit up and climb out.

  “There’s nothing to fear,” MiMi assures me, her face aged and eyes ageless. “Take my hand.”

  She extends her arm to the side for me, but trains her eyes on the coffin.

  “Feel my words in your mouth,” she says, and I do. The syllables she utters vibrate on my lips, tremble on my tongue. “Feel my power in your veins.”

  She squeezes my hand, and the lightning that split the sky hours ago strikes through my blood. She spares me a quick glance and a smile of satisfaction from what she must see on my face.

  Awe.

  “It’s the power of the unbroken line,” she says with a gentle smile. “Two women from our lineage together. There’s power in that.”

  She turns her attention back ahead and glances up at the sky, now quiet and awaiting her wishes.

  “You know who I am,” she says, her words, her voice, bold, confident. “I’m here to make my judgment known. This man’s soul hangs in the balance.”

  At MiMi’s words, a chill descends in the summer air.

  “I’m here to lay a stone on the side of hell. As he begins his journey, I send him on with these words.”

  Her eyes open, and she slowly turns her head to look at me, and it’s exactly as she said. I feel the power in my veins. And her words, I feel them on my tongue, and we say them in shocking simultaneity.

  “No peace,” we say together.

  In the years to come, I would ask myself many times if I really believed we consigned Ron to hell that day. Like so many things I gleaned from MiMi, I have no explanation. I only know that once our words were spoken, that rainbow, the multi-colored promising path from Heaven to Earth, was nowhere to be found.

  “Wild women are an unexplainable spark of life. They ooze freedom and seek awareness, they belong to nobody but themselves . . .

  she'll allow you into her chaos, but she'll also show you her magic.”

  — Nikki Rowe, Once a Girl, Now a Woman

  1

  Lotus

  They say if you can make it here, you can make it anywhere. New York City is a beautiful bitch dipped in glitter, giving you the finger while walking the runway in her Louboutins. The best, brightest, and beastliest grind here.

  When I moved from Atlanta to New York two years ago, it felt like I was embarking on an improbable adventure to an open frontier. I was like that Pioneer Woman on television, but instead of churning my own butter, I made clothes from scratch. My bare necessities were three garbage bags stuffed with all my belongings, my great-grandmother’s sewing machine, and a knock-off Louis Vuitton Neverfull bag. I fancied myself Carrie Bradshaw. The girls eating lunch with me in Bryant Park right now? They’re my Charlotte, Miranda, and Samantha, all rolled into two.

  “So I’ve got some news,” Billie says, her eyes darting between me and my roommate, Yari. “Paul’s getting a divorce.”

  I give something dark in my grilled chicken salad an investigative poke to make sure it doesn’t move, but otherwise don’t respond. Yari, looking inappropriately unimpressed, slurps the last of her Pellegrino through a straw.

  “Uh, bitches . . .” Billie says, disappointment darkening her green eyes. The flush climbing her cheeks is embarrassment, anger, or ninety-five degrees of New York summer. Either way, her temperature is rising.

  “Oh, sorry. That’s great,” I finally say, not bothering to inject much enthusiasm or faith into my words.

  “Doesn’t he get a divorce like every month?” Yari asks, fake curiosity on her face. “Seems like he decides to get one every time you give him a blow job.”

  If anything, Wilhelmina Claybourne, Billie to her friends, of which we are the closest, blushes even redder.

  “No, he doesn’t,” Billie replies, suddenly preoccupied with the turkey roll on her Styrofoam plate.

  “Were you or were you not balls-to-jaws last night?” Yari’s eyes are serious, but her lips twitch at the corners.

  “I don’t see what that has to do with any—”

  “Balls to jaws. I rest my case.” Yari bangs her water on the table like a gavel. “I think it’s sad that I understand Paul better than you and his wife do.”

  “It’s not a real marriage,” Billie protests weakly.

  “That must be why he never gets a real divorce.” I stand and gesture for them to do the same. “Come on. We need to get back to work or we’ll be late for the meeting.”

  The green umbrella covering our table sheltered us from some of the unrelenting sunshine, but as soon as we toss our trash and start walking the few blocks to our office, it beats on our heads.

  “They don’t even sleep together,” Billie tries again.

  “Why would he need to sleep with his wife when he’s fucking you?” I ask, keeping my tone nonchalant. I actually get pissed as hell every time we have this revolving door of a conversation.

  “Forget I brought it up.” Billie sighs, walking between us with her eyes trained forward.

  “I’m sorry, Bill, but you’re having an affair with another woman’s husband,” Yari says, taking the elastic band from her wrist and pulling her long, dark hair into a messy bun. “This is the circle of trust and truth, and we’re your best friends. If we don’t call you on your ratchet ways, who will?”

  Billie looks over at me, waiting for me to weigh in. Like she doesn’t already know where I stand.

  “She’s right,” I say. “You’re thinking with your heart and your vagina.”

  “Gimme a break. You like sex more than Yari and me combined,” Billie fires back.

  I don’t unleash on her because I know we’re riding her hard, and she needs to score a point. “I actually think I’m done with dick for a while,” I say a little too casually.

  My words create a tiny cone of stunned silence even as the frenetic urban soundtrack continues playing around us.

  “Sorry.” Yari bangs an imaginary hearing aid. “This damn thing doesn’t always pick up bullshit. What’d you say?”

  The three of us laugh, but I sober with each step that takes us closer to the design studio where we work in the Garment District.

  “I’m serious,” I tell them. “I love dick, true, but I feel like I need . . . I don’t know, a break.”

  How do I explain how complex sex is for me? I’ve always compartmentalized it into a purely physical connection. I scratched the itch on my terms, letting men into my body, but allowing no real intimacy. Lately, though, not only has it left me unsatisfied, but it’s left me depressed. Empty. Bleak. Something in me wants more than what I’ve had, but true intimacy is a risk I’m not willing to take.

  Not to mention the fear. The last time I had sex . . .

  How do I explain to my friends what I don’t fully understand myself? Nothing I’ve been feeling makes sense. And telling them now would be like starting in the middle of a story they’ve never heard before. Maybe I could at least try talking to them about it.

  “Whoa.” Billie stares at her phone with her mouth hanging open. “Did we know there’s a Hi, Felicia bitmoji?”

  Okay. Maybe not talk to my friends about this.

  “Sorry,” she says, sidestepping a construction worker. “What were you saying about swearing off dick, Lo?”

  “I think I want to take a sex break.”

  Both of them stare at me as we approach the entrance to JPL Maison, the design studio where we work.

  “I don’t understand the words that are coming out of your mouth,” Yari finally replies.

  “I don’t know,” I say with a shrug. “It feels . . . empty.”

  “Then find a bigger dick,” Billie says. “One that’ll fill you up.”

  The
three of us share a grin in the lobby of the renovated loft which houses our offices.

  “I’m serious. I think this”—I gesture to my pelvic area—“needs to be man-free for a while.”

  “Remember that time I tried to quit smoking and gnawed through the strap of my purse?” Billie asks. “I feel like that’s how you’ll be if you don’t come on a regular basis. You might also gain ten pounds. I did.”

  “Who said anything about not coming?” I ignore Yari’s snort. “I have a diverse and quite capable fleet of vibrators.”

  The garage door of the elevator lifts, and we walk onto a floor displaying bolts of vibrant fabric, several tables with seamstresses and sewing machines, and rack after rack of expensive clothing in various stages of completion.